Poof, but like a balloon
I’m not sure why, but I have been kind of down the last week or so. There is exciting stuff, but I think it is stressing me out quite a bit. This stress has manifested itself in many ways: my playing jigsawdoku for 30 seconds only to pause for a minute because I don’t immediately see the answer, my inability to get a decent amount of sleep (I either get too much or too little), and my descent into Tri Delta drama. Yes, after five years of mostly avoiding the drama that was all too present during my collegiate days, I have finally swerved head-first into drama city. Sure, I’m trying to see her point of view, but it isn’t helping. It feels way more personal than the annoying calls I had to make to parents about their daughter’s finances. And I am about to burst.
Of course, the bursting sensation just tells me that I should repress the feeling until I feel more like myself (I’m a good New Englander). That way I won’t say something that I regret later. And I probably don’t want to hurt her feelings. But I feel that I am thinking the same thoughts I had about L Wang so many years ago, “I hope he has a great life, I just hope that it never crosses mine ever again.”
Well, now that I have vented a bit, the bursting sensation has subsided a bit. Thank you, kind (or non-existent) reader, you have truly helped!
Also, who thinks 2,551 word posts (as an outline) are a good idea? Seriously?